I'm just back. Back from a great trip inside myself.

I'm renewed, I'm fresh, I'm like a (yummy) baked pie!

Nah, now serious. I've met ppl worth knowing, and I learnt a lot about myself. In any curious way I got to meet my old self and tell them to update. It's been a long time since I can look at myself on a mirror without anger or fear. It seems that i came to accept my own body after years and years of neglecting it. And that made me happy in some weird way.

Then, ppl I got to know... There's a friend I knew in a very special way. The very first day I saw him I knew I wanted to be his friend. And everything occured thanks to a windstopper. He now is my muse.
I got to know my husband too. I got to know his very inner thoughts and ideas about our marriage and relationship. It's like rediscovering a friend lost long time ago. It made me feel loved.

I made some -real- friends in my workplace. I always thought of me as a nerd, but by the time I got some problems in there, there were ppl wanting to give a hand. Then I realized that being good-hearted has made me some good workmates... and some friends.

I'm not talking about creativity now. I know I have to be fine so I can unblock my mind. I hope this time is for real.

There still are bad things around, but I've learnt to enjoy little things whenever they come. That's why I think I'm still like a kid: I can see everything as a unique, one time miracle. Even if it's happening everyday. Even if it's the most stupid thing in the world.

That, and facing Alzheimer's disease that's suffering a very close relative of mine has made me be a little more humble.

I'm happy to know you all. To be here on dA (though I don't upload much) and to see great art everyday in here (and on flickr, where i made another account). It's a great place to get inspired.

Take care,

~Risk

(FYI I'm on twitter too, if you want me to follow you, just tell me! I'm negativefeeling )